The Pitt Fic: Take a Flier (Abbot/Robby, NC-17)
Apr. 18th, 2026 02:49 pmTake a Flier (3661 words) by Alethia
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Pitt (TV)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Jack Abbot/Michael "Robby" Robinavitch
Characters: Jack Abbot (The Pitt), Michael "Robby" Robinavitch, Dana Evans
Additional Tags: Season/Series 02, Episode Related, Complicated Relationships, Developing Relationship, Porn, finale post-ep, the inherent romanticism of "it's you and me"
Summary:
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Pitt (TV)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Jack Abbot/Michael "Robby" Robinavitch
Characters: Jack Abbot (The Pitt), Michael "Robby" Robinavitch, Dana Evans
Additional Tags: Season/Series 02, Episode Related, Complicated Relationships, Developing Relationship, Porn, finale post-ep, the inherent romanticism of "it's you and me"
Summary:
"It's late to start riding," Jack said as Robby straightened, a neutral statement that was a protest nonetheless. They knew how to say things without saying anything, the two of them.
Maybe that was part of the problem.
Robby stared down at the still-sleeping baby. "I have a lot of things to see," he said, almost to himself, a double layer to that, one that Jack found oddly heartening.
"And people to love," he said, taking a flier on it because why the fuck not.
the greenest saddest strongest kind of hope
Apr. 18th, 2026 05:40 pmToday's poem:
A Certain Kind of Eden
by Kay Ryan
It seems like you could, but you can't go back and pull
the roots and runners and replant.
It's all too deep for that.
You've overprized intention,
have mistaken any bent you're given
for control. You thought you chose
the bean and chose the soil.
You even thought you abandoned
one or two gardens. But those things
keep growing where we put them—
if we put them at all.
A certain kind of Eden holds us thrall.
Even the one vine that tendrils out alone
in time turns on its own impulse,
twisting back down its upward course
a strong and then a stronger rope,
the greenest saddest strongest
kind of hope.
*
A Certain Kind of Eden
by Kay Ryan
It seems like you could, but you can't go back and pull
the roots and runners and replant.
It's all too deep for that.
You've overprized intention,
have mistaken any bent you're given
for control. You thought you chose
the bean and chose the soil.
You even thought you abandoned
one or two gardens. But those things
keep growing where we put them—
if we put them at all.
A certain kind of Eden holds us thrall.
Even the one vine that tendrils out alone
in time turns on its own impulse,
twisting back down its upward course
a strong and then a stronger rope,
the greenest saddest strongest
kind of hope.
*
Lately I've stopped worrying about the end.
Apr. 17th, 2026 07:59 pmJust woke up from an unexpected 2 hour nap, so thoughts on The Pitt finale will have to wait. Here's today's poem:
Materials for a Gravestone Rubbing
I have long wanted to be starlight in spring
and the late snow that lingers there, coming down
at Harpers Ferry over the river or gathered
on a windowsill on third street in Brooklyn
when I was twenty-two — the potpourri
of sky the wind carries after a storm.
The gray darkening on a far ridge. If you are reading this
there is still a way. I can take your smooth palm in mine
and lead you toward a distant city and a night
when you were on the mountain and dreaming of the other world
and we can walk together past the pre-war homes
converted now to low-rent apartments for college students
or workers come in from long days on a road crew,
coveralls draped over the backs of kitchen chairs
and the light swaying just so. We can go on —
along the cracked sidewalks above the train tracks
that can't exist again even as the grasses come up between them
and look through a fog and a single pair of headlights
making definite beams in the material cold.
No moonlight to get netted up in on the surface of the water
no traffic at this hour just the scraps of paper blown
into gutters and the electric hum of streetlights,
a few voices, which almost walk like footfall down alleys
overgrown with briars and creeping vines, their crude
latticework against the brick and the exhale
of a bartender on a smoke break and the smoke
which still drifts. Now it must be all worn through
but then it was barely remarkable though I stop
to look back at the homes and at snow melt on roads
the flat glitter on the black road, the moiré pattern
yet to be captured by language — and for a minute believe
in something as my stepfather believed in the smell of fire
whenever he left in the middle of the night
and returned before dawn and spoke to no one, didn’t
wake anyone up. Sometimes I feel that alone,
that pure, as if looking back at myself
through the scrim of time and you are there
standing in our kitchen at this hour and I can almost
hear you and the first singing caught-up there in the back
of your throat. Lately I've stopped worrying about the end.
Each day my hand is smaller on your shoulders. New birds
still return and the hillsides green all around, the stars
have traveled over the horizon and in the blink
of an eye you are here — grape-vine charcoal in your hand;
little hyphen I have become.
--Matthew Wimberley
*
Materials for a Gravestone Rubbing
I have long wanted to be starlight in spring
and the late snow that lingers there, coming down
at Harpers Ferry over the river or gathered
on a windowsill on third street in Brooklyn
when I was twenty-two — the potpourri
of sky the wind carries after a storm.
The gray darkening on a far ridge. If you are reading this
there is still a way. I can take your smooth palm in mine
and lead you toward a distant city and a night
when you were on the mountain and dreaming of the other world
and we can walk together past the pre-war homes
converted now to low-rent apartments for college students
or workers come in from long days on a road crew,
coveralls draped over the backs of kitchen chairs
and the light swaying just so. We can go on —
along the cracked sidewalks above the train tracks
that can't exist again even as the grasses come up between them
and look through a fog and a single pair of headlights
making definite beams in the material cold.
No moonlight to get netted up in on the surface of the water
no traffic at this hour just the scraps of paper blown
into gutters and the electric hum of streetlights,
a few voices, which almost walk like footfall down alleys
overgrown with briars and creeping vines, their crude
latticework against the brick and the exhale
of a bartender on a smoke break and the smoke
which still drifts. Now it must be all worn through
but then it was barely remarkable though I stop
to look back at the homes and at snow melt on roads
the flat glitter on the black road, the moiré pattern
yet to be captured by language — and for a minute believe
in something as my stepfather believed in the smell of fire
whenever he left in the middle of the night
and returned before dawn and spoke to no one, didn’t
wake anyone up. Sometimes I feel that alone,
that pure, as if looking back at myself
through the scrim of time and you are there
standing in our kitchen at this hour and I can almost
hear you and the first singing caught-up there in the back
of your throat. Lately I've stopped worrying about the end.
Each day my hand is smaller on your shoulders. New birds
still return and the hillsides green all around, the stars
have traveled over the horizon and in the blink
of an eye you are here — grape-vine charcoal in your hand;
little hyphen I have become.
--Matthew Wimberley
*
Teen Wolf, The Light in the Woods, by DiscontentedWinter
Apr. 17th, 2026 12:17 pmFandom: Teen Wolf
Pairings/Characters: Stiles Stilinski/Derek Hale
Rating: PG
Length: 12K for the first story; 35K for the 5 stories series
Creator Links: DiscontentedWinter on AO3
Theme: Arranged Marriage
Content Notes:
Canon-typical violence
Summary:
To honour a treaty with the people of a strange land, Derek Hale, prince of the kingdom of Triskelion, has to marry Stiles.
Reccer's Notes:
A beautifully lyric and almost mystical work about an arranged marriage between Prince Stiles and Prince Derek where they have never met before the wedding and do not speak each other's language. What could have been either slapstick or tragic turns beautiful in DiscontentedWinter's hands... she shows us the beauty in learning about others and how the power of belief can stop armies.
The additional stories expand the world-building and show how two very different peoples can learn to live together.
Fanwork Links:
The Light in the Woods On AO3
Pairings/Characters: Stiles Stilinski/Derek Hale
Rating: PG
Length: 12K for the first story; 35K for the 5 stories series
Creator Links: DiscontentedWinter on AO3
Theme: Arranged Marriage
Content Notes:
Canon-typical violence
Summary:
To honour a treaty with the people of a strange land, Derek Hale, prince of the kingdom of Triskelion, has to marry Stiles.
Reccer's Notes:
A beautifully lyric and almost mystical work about an arranged marriage between Prince Stiles and Prince Derek where they have never met before the wedding and do not speak each other's language. What could have been either slapstick or tragic turns beautiful in DiscontentedWinter's hands... she shows us the beauty in learning about others and how the power of belief can stop armies.
The additional stories expand the world-building and show how two very different peoples can learn to live together.
Fanwork Links:
The Light in the Woods On AO3
Festivids Vid Recs
Apr. 15th, 2026 10:49 pmFinally watched the vids in the 2025
festivids collection! Here are my favorites:
Blush | Challengers | by BlueshiftOfDeath
•Ahhhh the way the vid builds momentum with the song is so good. I love the way the vidder mixed in the hotel scene with everyone at the Challenger - like it was Tashi's turn to be impressed and she was not disappointed.
A Good Son Never Dies | Hades Video Game | by hartknyx
•The play-throughs are so pretty! The editing is really clever and I loved how the editor worked with the music. And Meg and Than make appearances too :D After watching, I really wanted to go play the game again.
Take A Chance On Me | Hacks (TV) | by periru3
•This captures Kayla and Jimmy and their hilarious relationship and its progression over the course of the show. Jimmy's face journeys crack me up.
who wants to live forever? | 17776: What Football Will Look Like in the Future - Jon Bois | by magsintherain
•I was so impressed with how the vidder was able to use text and football montages to convey the spirit of the source material! This one had me deep in my feels about the human spirit. And I believe the source mentions 2026, so what a perfect year for a vid about it!
Turn Tables | Multi-fandom/Civil Rights Movement | by eruthros
•A vid that got me deep in the feels about the human spirit, but in a completely different way. Please mind the tags. I wasn't familiar with all of the sources in the vid, but the editing is overall very uplifting. The power is with the people!
The Greatest | Pole Vault RPF | by Isagel
•I had never heard of Emmanouil Karalis until I watched this, but he seems like such a joyous person! I love the vid intro, and then all of the camaraderie among the pole vaulters was so great to see. I can't stop grinning the entire time I'm watching this.
Blush | Challengers | by BlueshiftOfDeath
•Ahhhh the way the vid builds momentum with the song is so good. I love the way the vidder mixed in the hotel scene with everyone at the Challenger - like it was Tashi's turn to be impressed and she was not disappointed.
A Good Son Never Dies | Hades Video Game | by hartknyx
•The play-throughs are so pretty! The editing is really clever and I loved how the editor worked with the music. And Meg and Than make appearances too :D After watching, I really wanted to go play the game again.
Take A Chance On Me | Hacks (TV) | by periru3
•This captures Kayla and Jimmy and their hilarious relationship and its progression over the course of the show. Jimmy's face journeys crack me up.
who wants to live forever? | 17776: What Football Will Look Like in the Future - Jon Bois | by magsintherain
•I was so impressed with how the vidder was able to use text and football montages to convey the spirit of the source material! This one had me deep in my feels about the human spirit. And I believe the source mentions 2026, so what a perfect year for a vid about it!
Turn Tables | Multi-fandom/Civil Rights Movement | by eruthros
•A vid that got me deep in the feels about the human spirit, but in a completely different way. Please mind the tags. I wasn't familiar with all of the sources in the vid, but the editing is overall very uplifting. The power is with the people!
The Greatest | Pole Vault RPF | by Isagel
•I had never heard of Emmanouil Karalis until I watched this, but he seems like such a joyous person! I love the vid intro, and then all of the camaraderie among the pole vaulters was so great to see. I can't stop grinning the entire time I'm watching this.
the rain will never stop falling
Apr. 16th, 2026 10:15 pmAlmost forgot to post!
Shoulders
by Naomi Shihab Nye
A man crosses the street in rain,
stepping gently, looking two times north and south,
because his son is asleep on his shoulder.
No car must splash him.
No car drive too near to his shadow.
This man carries the world's most sensitive cargo
but he's not marked.
Nowhere does his jacket say FRAGILE,
HANDLE WITH CARE.
His ear fills up with breathing.
He hears the hum of a boy's dream
deep inside him.
We're not going to be able
to live in this world
if we're not willing to do what he's doing
with one another.
The road will only be wide.
The rain will never stop falling.
*
Shoulders
by Naomi Shihab Nye
A man crosses the street in rain,
stepping gently, looking two times north and south,
because his son is asleep on his shoulder.
No car must splash him.
No car drive too near to his shadow.
This man carries the world's most sensitive cargo
but he's not marked.
Nowhere does his jacket say FRAGILE,
HANDLE WITH CARE.
His ear fills up with breathing.
He hears the hum of a boy's dream
deep inside him.
We're not going to be able
to live in this world
if we're not willing to do what he's doing
with one another.
The road will only be wide.
The rain will never stop falling.
*
Round 186 Theme Poll
Apr. 16th, 2026 08:36 amPoll #34481 round 186 theme poll
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: Just the Poll Creator, participants: 84
Pick the next theme of fancake:
Collaborations & Remixes
23 (27.4%)
Journey/Travel
37 (44.0%)
Whump
24 (28.6%)
Pillowfest Ends
Apr. 15th, 2026 04:59 pm1) My partner injured yet another finger playing baseball last weekend and had to go to the emergency room. Luckily it was not broken, just dislocated. Since then we have gotten 3 phone calls from the hospital group asking for a survey response.
This is particularly irritating because this group has been buying up hospitals, clinics and medical practices in the area, and is currently the only emergency room in town and provider of certain services.
So what is the point of the survey? What choice to we have? How will any response actually do anything to improve care?
2) I've been warming to High Potential, and recently Keith Carradine guest starred. I knew I recognized him as soon as he appeared, but I couldn't place him. Instead I kept wondering why he made me think of Joel Kinnaman in For All Mankind. For sure they could play relatives.
3) I have not been reading any fic for the better part of a year now. Some months back I read about 4 or 5 that had probably been downloaded over a year earlier, but I haven't been doing offline reading for the first time in a very long time. And when it happened before it was because I didn't have access to material, whereas now I have dozens of commercial books and even more fic.
(I say "nothing" though this doesn't count the random drabble or ficlet someone recs.) ( Read more... )
4) The thing that really stood out to me about Amazon announcing they're discontinuing service to 2012 and earlier Kindles was to think that there's not many electronics that are still running after 15 years. ( Read more... )
5) The Pillowfort Anniversary festivities have ended and it was fun. Many (not even all!) of the activities could be summed up with the bingo card. ( Read more... )
I'd love to see someone else take this on in a few years' time.

This is particularly irritating because this group has been buying up hospitals, clinics and medical practices in the area, and is currently the only emergency room in town and provider of certain services.
So what is the point of the survey? What choice to we have? How will any response actually do anything to improve care?
2) I've been warming to High Potential, and recently Keith Carradine guest starred. I knew I recognized him as soon as he appeared, but I couldn't place him. Instead I kept wondering why he made me think of Joel Kinnaman in For All Mankind. For sure they could play relatives.
3) I have not been reading any fic for the better part of a year now. Some months back I read about 4 or 5 that had probably been downloaded over a year earlier, but I haven't been doing offline reading for the first time in a very long time. And when it happened before it was because I didn't have access to material, whereas now I have dozens of commercial books and even more fic.
(I say "nothing" though this doesn't count the random drabble or ficlet someone recs.) ( Read more... )
4) The thing that really stood out to me about Amazon announcing they're discontinuing service to 2012 and earlier Kindles was to think that there's not many electronics that are still running after 15 years. ( Read more... )
5) The Pillowfort Anniversary festivities have ended and it was fun. Many (not even all!) of the activities could be summed up with the bingo card. ( Read more... )
I'd love to see someone else take this on in a few years' time.
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i am the throat of the mountains
Apr. 15th, 2026 02:36 pmI knew Isa Briones was on Broadway, but I had never heard her actually sing until yesterday when I saw this on tumblr: Isa Briones sings "Who's Sorry Now" from JUST IN TIME | Now on Broadway. What a set of pipes!
*
Today's poem:
Fire
a woman can't survive
by her own breath
alone
she must know
the voices of mountains
she must recognize
the foreverness of blue sky
she must flow
with the elusive
bodies
of night winds
who will take her
into herself
look at me
i am not a separate woman
i am the continuance
of blue sky
i am the throat
of the mountains
a night wind
who burns
with every breath
she takes
—Joy Harjo
*
*
Today's poem:
Fire
a woman can't survive
by her own breath
alone
she must know
the voices of mountains
she must recognize
the foreverness of blue sky
she must flow
with the elusive
bodies
of night winds
who will take her
into herself
look at me
i am not a separate woman
i am the continuance
of blue sky
i am the throat
of the mountains
a night wind
who burns
with every breath
she takes
—Joy Harjo
*
chittering all its unpronounceable names
Apr. 14th, 2026 02:58 pmToday's poem:
A Dictionary Names the Wind in the Trees
by Susan Cohen
Psithurism because
what else would we call sound embedded
with leaf mold and breath
zithering just below the daily drone
of power saws and chippers,
eons of air shifting
like an old Chevy through leaves,
riffling papery corn fields
and the eucalyptus,
stuttering through windbreaks,
jittering an aspen
in a beam of breath,
lisping nothing pins me down
in the language of the Huron,
in Olmec, in Sanskrit, chittering
all its unpronounceable names,
its tunes with the shiver of pine needles
and the moves of a river?
Psithurism comes as close
to the clash of wind and trees
as orgasm comes to the friction
of muscles, nerves, bodies,
which is to say when so many words
cannot catch it,
those of us always searching
for just the right one may
as well stop speaking
and lift our heads
like mule deer, ears twitched
for the smallest sound.
*
A Dictionary Names the Wind in the Trees
by Susan Cohen
Psithurism because
what else would we call sound embedded
with leaf mold and breath
zithering just below the daily drone
of power saws and chippers,
eons of air shifting
like an old Chevy through leaves,
riffling papery corn fields
and the eucalyptus,
stuttering through windbreaks,
jittering an aspen
in a beam of breath,
lisping nothing pins me down
in the language of the Huron,
in Olmec, in Sanskrit, chittering
all its unpronounceable names,
its tunes with the shiver of pine needles
and the moves of a river?
Psithurism comes as close
to the clash of wind and trees
as orgasm comes to the friction
of muscles, nerves, bodies,
which is to say when so many words
cannot catch it,
those of us always searching
for just the right one may
as well stop speaking
and lift our heads
like mule deer, ears twitched
for the smallest sound.
*
Fic: still haunted by the weight of those eyes (Merlin/Gwaine)
Apr. 13th, 2026 09:33 pmTitle: still haunted by the weight of those eyes
Fandom: Merlin (BBC)
Pairing: Merlin/Gwaine
Rated: Teen
Word Count: 7,770
Summary: Merlin and Gwaine and their missed moments over the years. Lucky for both of them, they get a second chance many years after Camlann.
Tags: POV switching, canon compliant, missing scenes, getting together, pining for years, Gwaine knows about Merlin's magic, resurrection
A/N: For the Merlin Reverse Big Bang 2026, based off of this Merwaine fanvideo by tigereyes45.
Fic on AO3
( Fic under here )
Fandom: Merlin (BBC)
Pairing: Merlin/Gwaine
Rated: Teen
Word Count: 7,770
Summary: Merlin and Gwaine and their missed moments over the years. Lucky for both of them, they get a second chance many years after Camlann.
Tags: POV switching, canon compliant, missing scenes, getting together, pining for years, Gwaine knows about Merlin's magic, resurrection
A/N: For the Merlin Reverse Big Bang 2026, based off of this Merwaine fanvideo by tigereyes45.
Fic on AO3
( Fic under here )
in the one place you'd think a girl would be safe
Apr. 13th, 2026 05:43 pmToday's poem:
Eurydice
by Carol Ann Duffy
Girls, I was dead and down
in the Underworld, a shade,
a shadow of my former self, nowhen.
It was a place where language stopped,
a black full stop, a black hole
Where the words had to come to an end.
And end they did there,
last words,
famous or not.
It suited me down to the ground.
So imagine me there,
unavailable,
out of this world,
then picture my face in that place
of Eternal Repose,
in the one place you'd think a girl would be safe
from the kind of a man
who follows her round
writing poems,
hovers about
while she reads them,
calls her His Muse,
and once sulked for a night and a day
because she remarked on his weakness for abstract nouns.
Just picture my face
when I heard –
Ye Gods –
a familiar knock-knock at Death's door.
Him.
Big O.
Larger than life.
With his lyre
and a poem to pitch, with me as the prize.
Things were different back then.
For the men, verse-wise,
Big O was the boy. Legendary.
The blurb on the back of his books claimed
that animals,
aardvark to zebra,
flocked to his side when he sang,
fish leapt in their shoals
at the sound of his voice,
even the mute, sullen stones at his feet
wept wee, silver tears.
Bollocks. (I'd done all the typing myself,
I should know.)
And given my time all over again,
rest assured that I'd rather speak for myself
than be Dearest, Beloved, Dark Lady, White Goddess etc., etc.
In fact girls, I'd rather be dead.
But the Gods are like publishers,
usually male,
and what you doubtless know of my tale
is the deal.
Orpheus strutted his stuff.
The bloodless ghosts were in tears.
Sisyphus sat on his rock for the first time in years.
Tantalus was permitted a couple of beers.
The woman in question could scarcely believe her ears.
Like it or not,
I must follow him back to our life –
Eurydice, Orpheus' wife –
to be trapped in his images, metaphors, similes,
octaves and sextets, quatrains and couplets,
elegies, limericks, villanelles,
histories, myths...
He'd been told that he mustn't look back
or turn round,
but walk steadily upwards,
myself right behind him,
out of the Underworld
into the upper air that for me was the past.
He'd been warned
that one look would lose me
for ever and ever.
So we walked, we walked.
Nobody talked.
Girls, forget what you've read.
It happened like this –
I did everything in my power
to make him look back.
What did I have to do, I said,
to make him see we were through?
I was dead. Deceased.
I was Resting in Peace. Passé. Late.
Past my sell-by date...
I stretched out my hand
to touch him once
on the back of the neck.
Please let me stay.
But already the light had saddened from purple to grey.
It was an uphill schlep
from death to life
and with every step
I willed him to turn.
I was thinking of filching the poem
out of his cloak,
when inspiration finally struck.
I stopped, thrilled.
He was a yard in front.
My voice shook when I spoke –
Orpheus, your poem's a masterpiece.
I'd love to hear it again…
He was smiling modestly,
when he turned,
when he turned and he looked at me.
What else?
I noticed he hadn't shaved.
I waved once and was gone.
The dead are so talented.
The living walk by the edge of a vast lake
near, the wise, drowned silence of the dead.
*
Eurydice
by Carol Ann Duffy
Girls, I was dead and down
in the Underworld, a shade,
a shadow of my former self, nowhen.
It was a place where language stopped,
a black full stop, a black hole
Where the words had to come to an end.
And end they did there,
last words,
famous or not.
It suited me down to the ground.
So imagine me there,
unavailable,
out of this world,
then picture my face in that place
of Eternal Repose,
in the one place you'd think a girl would be safe
from the kind of a man
who follows her round
writing poems,
hovers about
while she reads them,
calls her His Muse,
and once sulked for a night and a day
because she remarked on his weakness for abstract nouns.
Just picture my face
when I heard –
Ye Gods –
a familiar knock-knock at Death's door.
Him.
Big O.
Larger than life.
With his lyre
and a poem to pitch, with me as the prize.
Things were different back then.
For the men, verse-wise,
Big O was the boy. Legendary.
The blurb on the back of his books claimed
that animals,
aardvark to zebra,
flocked to his side when he sang,
fish leapt in their shoals
at the sound of his voice,
even the mute, sullen stones at his feet
wept wee, silver tears.
Bollocks. (I'd done all the typing myself,
I should know.)
And given my time all over again,
rest assured that I'd rather speak for myself
than be Dearest, Beloved, Dark Lady, White Goddess etc., etc.
In fact girls, I'd rather be dead.
But the Gods are like publishers,
usually male,
and what you doubtless know of my tale
is the deal.
Orpheus strutted his stuff.
The bloodless ghosts were in tears.
Sisyphus sat on his rock for the first time in years.
Tantalus was permitted a couple of beers.
The woman in question could scarcely believe her ears.
Like it or not,
I must follow him back to our life –
Eurydice, Orpheus' wife –
to be trapped in his images, metaphors, similes,
octaves and sextets, quatrains and couplets,
elegies, limericks, villanelles,
histories, myths...
He'd been told that he mustn't look back
or turn round,
but walk steadily upwards,
myself right behind him,
out of the Underworld
into the upper air that for me was the past.
He'd been warned
that one look would lose me
for ever and ever.
So we walked, we walked.
Nobody talked.
Girls, forget what you've read.
It happened like this –
I did everything in my power
to make him look back.
What did I have to do, I said,
to make him see we were through?
I was dead. Deceased.
I was Resting in Peace. Passé. Late.
Past my sell-by date...
I stretched out my hand
to touch him once
on the back of the neck.
Please let me stay.
But already the light had saddened from purple to grey.
It was an uphill schlep
from death to life
and with every step
I willed him to turn.
I was thinking of filching the poem
out of his cloak,
when inspiration finally struck.
I stopped, thrilled.
He was a yard in front.
My voice shook when I spoke –
Orpheus, your poem's a masterpiece.
I'd love to hear it again…
He was smiling modestly,
when he turned,
when he turned and he looked at me.
What else?
I noticed he hadn't shaved.
I waved once and was gone.
The dead are so talented.
The living walk by the edge of a vast lake
near, the wise, drowned silence of the dead.
*
Weekend notes
Apr. 13th, 2026 11:07 amIn a fit of optimism, The Boy and I planted some cherry tomato seedlings behind our condo. Neither one of us has any knowledge or experience of vegetable gardening, so we're going by random internet advice and hoping that the San Diego climate will make up for our inadequacies.
Saturday morning, we went hiking in Torrey Pines, which has been reopened again after being closed all winter "to improve the trails." If there was any actual improvement, we didn't see it, but it was still an excellent hike, with lots of great wildlife views, including a Gray Whale hanging out unusually close to shore. We also spotted three brush rabbits at different spots along the trail, and a flock of migrating lazuli buntings.
( all photos courtesy of The Boy )
Saturday morning, we went hiking in Torrey Pines, which has been reopened again after being closed all winter "to improve the trails." If there was any actual improvement, we didn't see it, but it was still an excellent hike, with lots of great wildlife views, including a Gray Whale hanging out unusually close to shore. We also spotted three brush rabbits at different spots along the trail, and a flock of migrating lazuli buntings.
( all photos courtesy of The Boy )
Hockey RPF: You're the One That I Want by thehoyden
Apr. 13th, 2026 12:16 pmFandom: Hockey RPF
Characters/Pairings: Sidney Crosby/Evgeni (Geno) Malkin, Alexander Ovechkin, Shea Weber, Joe Thornton
Rating: Explicit
Length: 15,934
Content Notes: no AO3 warnings apply
Creator Links: thehoyden on AO3
Themes: Arranged marriage, First time, AU: royalty, Secret identity
Summary: It’s actually his father who suggests it.
“Take the rest of the summer for yourself,” he says. “Do something fun.”
“Fun,” Sidney repeats blankly.
Reccer's Notes: I'm into hockey fics now! This is a classic, already reccd here ages ago and worth revisiting. It's a royalty AU with added hockey, which is where Sid meets Geno. There's a fun, hot and charming initial romance, then Sid has to get on with his life of obligations, including the frustrating search for a suitable royal-lineage husband to cement political ties. Ultimately, love wins, of course, and it's a satisfying, well written story.
Fanwork Links: You're the One That I Want (locked to AO3)
Characters/Pairings: Sidney Crosby/Evgeni (Geno) Malkin, Alexander Ovechkin, Shea Weber, Joe Thornton
Rating: Explicit
Length: 15,934
Content Notes: no AO3 warnings apply
Creator Links: thehoyden on AO3
Themes: Arranged marriage, First time, AU: royalty, Secret identity
Summary: It’s actually his father who suggests it.
“Take the rest of the summer for yourself,” he says. “Do something fun.”
“Fun,” Sidney repeats blankly.
Reccer's Notes: I'm into hockey fics now! This is a classic, already reccd here ages ago and worth revisiting. It's a royalty AU with added hockey, which is where Sid meets Geno. There's a fun, hot and charming initial romance, then Sid has to get on with his life of obligations, including the frustrating search for a suitable royal-lineage husband to cement political ties. Ultimately, love wins, of course, and it's a satisfying, well written story.
Fanwork Links: You're the One That I Want (locked to AO3)
Gluten-Free Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies
Apr. 12th, 2026 01:20 pmSoft Ingredients
3/4 cup plus 1 Tbsp Jiff Extra Crunchy Peanut Butter (214 grams)
1/2 cup unsalted butter, room temp., cut into large pieces (1 stick; 109 grams)
3 tablespoons milk, room temperature
1 tablespoon vanilla, plus extra if desired
1 whole egg plus 1 egg yolk and 1 egg white, room temp., lightly beaten in stages
Dry Ingredients
1¼ cup packed brown sugar (248 grams)
1¾ cup gluten-free baking flour plus 3 tablespoons (280 grams)
3/4 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 teaspoon salt
1 (12-ounce) bag semi-sweet chocolate chips
1. Pre-heat oven to 350 degrees.
2. Cream peanut butter and butter together thoroughly in a large bowl. Combine milk, vanilla, and egg in a separate bowl, then add to peanut butter mixture. Cream thoroughly
3. Whisk the dry ingredients together thoroughly in a separate large bowl.
4. Gradually add the dry ingredients to the creamed ingredients. Mix thoroughly, but do not over-mix. Stir in chocolate chips.
5. Let the dough rest for 30 to 60 minutes, preferably refrigerate overnight.
6. Drop the cookie dough onto baking sheets, but do not roll or flatten. Edges may be molded to form circular shapes.
Baking time for 60 small-sized cookies: 9-12 minutes.
For 60 cookies
1 cookie: 100 calories. 43 mg. sodium.
For 36 cookies
1 cookie: 166 calories. 72 mg. sodium.
Total calories: 5,961. Total sodium: 2,561 mg.
1 tablespoon of dough: 68 calories; 29 mg sodium.
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We use Bob's Red Mill Gluten Free 1 to 1 Baking Flour (blue bag). Other gluten-free flours may produce different results.
3/4 cup plus 1 Tbsp Jiff Extra Crunchy Peanut Butter (214 grams)
1/2 cup unsalted butter, room temp., cut into large pieces (1 stick; 109 grams)
3 tablespoons milk, room temperature
1 tablespoon vanilla, plus extra if desired
1 whole egg plus 1 egg yolk and 1 egg white, room temp., lightly beaten in stages
Dry Ingredients
1¼ cup packed brown sugar (248 grams)
1¾ cup gluten-free baking flour plus 3 tablespoons (280 grams)
3/4 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 teaspoon salt
1 (12-ounce) bag semi-sweet chocolate chips
1. Pre-heat oven to 350 degrees.
2. Cream peanut butter and butter together thoroughly in a large bowl. Combine milk, vanilla, and egg in a separate bowl, then add to peanut butter mixture. Cream thoroughly
3. Whisk the dry ingredients together thoroughly in a separate large bowl.
4. Gradually add the dry ingredients to the creamed ingredients. Mix thoroughly, but do not over-mix. Stir in chocolate chips.
5. Let the dough rest for 30 to 60 minutes, preferably refrigerate overnight.
6. Drop the cookie dough onto baking sheets, but do not roll or flatten. Edges may be molded to form circular shapes.
Baking time for 60 small-sized cookies: 9-12 minutes.
For 60 cookies
1 cookie: 100 calories. 43 mg. sodium.
For 36 cookies
1 cookie: 166 calories. 72 mg. sodium.
Total calories: 5,961. Total sodium: 2,561 mg.
1 tablespoon of dough: 68 calories; 29 mg sodium.
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We use Bob's Red Mill Gluten Free 1 to 1 Baking Flour (blue bag). Other gluten-free flours may produce different results.
